On days that are particularly difficult, I like to actually sit down and plan out my perfect vacation. You know, the one where you could go anywhere, without money concerns, parental responsibilities or multiple schedules getting in the way? Well, today was one of those days. I've always wanted to go to Hawaii and I certainly hope I can go with Shon one of these days, but I like needed it real bad today. I needed the warm sunshine and the beautiful beaches and the clear, aqua water. I needed seclusion. A beach without any other tourists. A little bungalow on the coast with meals and entertainment included. Maybe a jacuzzi or jetted tub. And a big, soft, cushy king sized bed that feels like you're laying on clouds. The only sounds coming through the open windows that of the waves, the birds, the wind. The flowery smells and comforting rays of sun falling softly on the walls and floors. Where there are no TVs, no cell phones, no computers, no technology of any kind. Where I could just walk on the beach in my bare feet and take an occasional dip in the shallow water (I'm terrified of deep bodies of water. If I can't see the bottom, I ain't going out there), maybe have a picnic of fruit and cheese and bread on the beach with my loving husband. And know that my son is being taken care of and spoiled by both sets of grandparents in Spokane. Even a weekend would be awesome. Just enough time to rejuvenate and SLEEP!!! With no distractions of everyday life, where I only had to think about.... nothing. Doesn't that sound nice? Just once. That's all I'm asking. Sigh.
On a totally unrelated note, does anyone have an extra 1,000 or so bucks laying around that they don't know what to do with? Because, you know, I could probably find something to do with it......
But let's get back to reality. Instead, today I was awoken at 5:30 by a bloodcurdling scream coming from my son. I had moved to the couch around 3:00 because my back was hurting and I was tossing and turning and wanted Shon to get some sleep. So hearing this earth shattering scream, I hightailed it to Donovan's room thinking at the very least, that he had lost an appendage. Alas, when I entered his room, he was sitting up in bed and screaming about his blanket. Which was sitting on the bed next to him. So I picked it up and gave it to him. He proceeded to throw it back at me, still shrieking in this maniacal way that he's been trying out recently. I really had no idea what he wanted. My brain was foggy and I have a hard enough time trying to understand him even when he's not crying and thrashing. So I thought, well, maybe he had a nightmare. So I just brought him back downstairs, silently apologizing to the neighbors for the racket, and tried to calm him down. And the morning just got better from there on out. Throwing things, shouting at me, sitting on the cat, wanting candy for breakfast, breaking his truck and thinking I had magical powers to fix it (thank goodness for duct tape), being put in time out, etc. You get the picture. So after a morning like I had, a vacation seems like an appropriate request, right? Haha! Thankfully, he went down for a nap and woke up a different person. Hallelujah!!! If I haven't mentioned it yet, I'm LOVING toddlerhood. Not. 
I found a few quotes and feel good sayings that I thought I would share. They give me hope, even on days like today. Because they help me step back and realize that my life really is pretty incredible. I have so much to be thankful for! I'm trying to remember that more often. To keep that smile on my face. Even when all I want to do is punch something. Gotta take baby steps. Remember the big picture. Remember to take time for myself. Remember that this is just a moment in life. If I can remember and do all those things, I think I might just make it through another day!
Oh, and also: adult coloring books.
No joke.
Those things are like therapy in art form. I've bought a few of them now and I'm pretty obsessed with them. I may or may not have bought the Sherlock and Harry Potter ones as well...... Seriously. Look into it. They can save lives. That's my public service announcement for the day.
Here, I'll even make it easy for you. Click on this link. You can thank me later.
Much love to everyone!
Make today (and tomorrow) a great day!!!!
Hang in there! It really does get better...eventually! And I just read an article saying that adult coloring books ARE great therapy, as they allow you to de-stress and calm yourself. So, you go girl! I'm so proud of you and so glad that you're my daughter!
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