Thanksgiving week. Thanksgiving dinner. Thanksgiving leftovers.
All of these things are wonderful....and terrible at the same time. Especially for someone wanting to lost weight. My absolute favorite part of the traditional Thanksgiving dinner?
Stuffing.......
and
Pumpkin Pie (with REAL whipped cream)
and
Rolls
and
Green Bean Casserole
and
Mashed Potatoes......
Sadly enough, turkey is not my favorite meat, but even it tastes amazing alongside all the other yumminess. This is the official beginning of the "Holiday Season" which alarmingly refers mostly to the baked goods and savory meals that accompany the Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays. And let me tell you, every year I look forward to the influx of PUMPKIN everything. It's like a pumpkin mated with every tasty, comforting, and favorite food I love. And it is A-MAZ-ING!!!! It's the time for pumpkin pie Blizzards from Dairy Queen. It's the time for pumpkin spice hot chocolate from Starbucks. It's the time for pumpkin muffins, donuts, scones, cookies, etc. from the grocery stores. And it also coincides with my birthday, so.... I'm pretty sure that God intended me to partake. Am I right? I think so.
It is also the time when my baking and cooking whims come out to play. With a vengeance. I would bake maybe five times throughout the rest of the year, but after Halloween, I'm pretty sure I am inhabited by some dearly departed Rachael Ray-ish baking ghost. There's just something about this time of year. Makes me want to fill the house with soft, chewy, sweet delights. Mmmmm.....
I tell you all this to make a point.
My point is: Holiday food is good.
And I like to eat it.
And my body is the unwilling victim of my pumpkin addiction.
Thanksgiving is a time to be thankful. And there are so many things for me to be thankful for this year. My wonderful, loving family. My Heavenly Father and Jesus. My friends. My home, clothes, indoor plumbing, hot water, warm blankets, and all the other luxurious in life.
So I should be thankful for my body too, right??
Even if I may have gained a few pounds, right??
Well, all I have to say about that question is:
IN YOUR FACE HOLIDAY WEIGHT GAIN (so far)!!!!
Because, friends, here are my results for the last week.
Current weight: 256.8 lbs.
I tell you all this to make a point.
My point is: Holiday food is good.
And I like to eat it.
And my body is the unwilling victim of my pumpkin addiction.
Thanksgiving is a time to be thankful. And there are so many things for me to be thankful for this year. My wonderful, loving family. My Heavenly Father and Jesus. My friends. My home, clothes, indoor plumbing, hot water, warm blankets, and all the other luxurious in life.
So I should be thankful for my body too, right??
Even if I may have gained a few pounds, right??
Well, all I have to say about that question is:
IN YOUR FACE HOLIDAY WEIGHT GAIN (so far)!!!!
Because, friends, here are my results for the last week.
Current weight: 256.8 lbs.
Weight lost this week: 2.7 lbs.
Total weight lost: 8.6 lbs.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was as surprised as many of you may be at this point! But I'm not going to argue. Truth be told, I was very conscious of what I made and ate. My favorite thing is stuffing. I make it from scratch, using my mom's recipe and it is DE-LIGHT-FUL!! But you know, not the best for my butt. And my boys aren't the biggest fans of stuffing in general, so I just didn't make it. Was I a little sad? Heck, yes! But with it just being the three of us, it was so much easier to just not make it. I did, however, make green bean casserole (Shon's favorite) and partook of that. And rolls. SOOO many rolls!!! Haha! And yes, I did have pumpkin pie with whipped cream. And I ain't even sorry! But I watched my portions and did my best to abstain from my trigger foods.
And I must have done something right. I'm happy. :)
This next week, my main focus will be on drinking LOTS of water. I've noticed that I haven't been doing that as much as I should. And when I have in the past, it really makes all the difference. So I will make sure the toilet paper in our bathroom is well stocked and try to drink a whole gallon a day. I'm looking for clear urine, people!!! ;)
Now, I cannot guarantee that every week this winter will have these results. And I'm ok with that. I am just happy with last week's results because I tried hard to be good. But you know, cookies are good and I'm bound to cheat and not lose as much as I would like. Right now, in fact, there are pumpkin (see? In everything!) cheesecake bars sitting in my fridge that are calling my name. And I'm sure a few of those will meet their tragic end in my tummy at some point today. It's all about moderation. Just like the Word of Wisdom tells us. Moderation in all things.
My problems from before stem from the fact that I did not moderate. If I wanted something I ate it. Not really caring about what I might have eaten earlier in the day or week. I gave in to my urges. Had no self control. And that is what made me hate myself, which perpetuates the cycle. It is horrible! :( Worst feeling ever. But there is a way to break the cycle. It starts with recognizing the problem and then doing everything in your power to fight that urge. Believe me, it is SOOO much easier to give in. It feels so much better. At first. But then the guilt sets in and it just drives you further into the self loathing feelings that I'm just now starting to work through.
So if you're struggling, please know that you're not alone and there is a way out. I remember before I started on this journey, how hearing that from people would irritate me to the point of wanting to lash out at something. I wanted to shout that they had no idea what I was going through and it's not that easy and there is no way I can ever do what they are doing. I know how it feels to lose all hope. I know how it feels to fight the inner war of whether to slowly destroy yourself or valiantly trying to heave yourself onto the harder route of trying to saving yourself. Let me tell you. It is worth the fight. It is worth it to choose the harder path. Nothing that is good for you will come easily. That has been the most difficult thing for me to wrap my mind around. I am a notoriously lazy person and I did not want to try that hard. Which is why I was so close to destruction before I ripped myself away from that lifestyle. Granted, I have my own set of mental issues which haven't helped, but I am bound and determined to make a change. I have to. It will not be easy. But it will be worth it. Another familiar phrase, huh? ;)
Anyway, I'll get off my soapbox and let you nice people get on with your day. Thank you all for your support and love. Thank you for those who have posted comments, or chatted with me, or texted me. Your messages help me more than you could ever know! I'm sorry if I haven't responded to them all, but know that every word has been read and taken to heart and appreciated. You all give me the strength to continue. I am loving this blog, not only because it discusses important issues, but it also helps me in my healing process. It keeps me accountable. I know I have to report my results to all of you and that helps me stay on track as well. So each one of you have, in some way, helped save me. And I will never be able to thank you enough for that precious gift.
Love you all!
Let's make it a great day!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was as surprised as many of you may be at this point! But I'm not going to argue. Truth be told, I was very conscious of what I made and ate. My favorite thing is stuffing. I make it from scratch, using my mom's recipe and it is DE-LIGHT-FUL!! But you know, not the best for my butt. And my boys aren't the biggest fans of stuffing in general, so I just didn't make it. Was I a little sad? Heck, yes! But with it just being the three of us, it was so much easier to just not make it. I did, however, make green bean casserole (Shon's favorite) and partook of that. And rolls. SOOO many rolls!!! Haha! And yes, I did have pumpkin pie with whipped cream. And I ain't even sorry! But I watched my portions and did my best to abstain from my trigger foods.And I must have done something right. I'm happy. :)
This next week, my main focus will be on drinking LOTS of water. I've noticed that I haven't been doing that as much as I should. And when I have in the past, it really makes all the difference. So I will make sure the toilet paper in our bathroom is well stocked and try to drink a whole gallon a day. I'm looking for clear urine, people!!! ;)
Now, I cannot guarantee that every week this winter will have these results. And I'm ok with that. I am just happy with last week's results because I tried hard to be good. But you know, cookies are good and I'm bound to cheat and not lose as much as I would like. Right now, in fact, there are pumpkin (see? In everything!) cheesecake bars sitting in my fridge that are calling my name. And I'm sure a few of those will meet their tragic end in my tummy at some point today. It's all about moderation. Just like the Word of Wisdom tells us. Moderation in all things.
My problems from before stem from the fact that I did not moderate. If I wanted something I ate it. Not really caring about what I might have eaten earlier in the day or week. I gave in to my urges. Had no self control. And that is what made me hate myself, which perpetuates the cycle. It is horrible! :( Worst feeling ever. But there is a way to break the cycle. It starts with recognizing the problem and then doing everything in your power to fight that urge. Believe me, it is SOOO much easier to give in. It feels so much better. At first. But then the guilt sets in and it just drives you further into the self loathing feelings that I'm just now starting to work through.
So if you're struggling, please know that you're not alone and there is a way out. I remember before I started on this journey, how hearing that from people would irritate me to the point of wanting to lash out at something. I wanted to shout that they had no idea what I was going through and it's not that easy and there is no way I can ever do what they are doing. I know how it feels to lose all hope. I know how it feels to fight the inner war of whether to slowly destroy yourself or valiantly trying to heave yourself onto the harder route of trying to saving yourself. Let me tell you. It is worth the fight. It is worth it to choose the harder path. Nothing that is good for you will come easily. That has been the most difficult thing for me to wrap my mind around. I am a notoriously lazy person and I did not want to try that hard. Which is why I was so close to destruction before I ripped myself away from that lifestyle. Granted, I have my own set of mental issues which haven't helped, but I am bound and determined to make a change. I have to. It will not be easy. But it will be worth it. Another familiar phrase, huh? ;)
Anyway, I'll get off my soapbox and let you nice people get on with your day. Thank you all for your support and love. Thank you for those who have posted comments, or chatted with me, or texted me. Your messages help me more than you could ever know! I'm sorry if I haven't responded to them all, but know that every word has been read and taken to heart and appreciated. You all give me the strength to continue. I am loving this blog, not only because it discusses important issues, but it also helps me in my healing process. It keeps me accountable. I know I have to report my results to all of you and that helps me stay on track as well. So each one of you have, in some way, helped save me. And I will never be able to thank you enough for that precious gift.Love you all!
Let's make it a great day!!
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